So Since my last blog 2 months ago, things have changed drastically for me and in the best way ever! Through the guidance of one of my Professors he helped me realize how amazing, gifted and how much I have inside of me to give to people. He encouraged me to keep doing what I love like writing, creating new ideas, changing the world and just be the unique person I am. It was the best feeling being able to talk to him and tell him exactly what is on my mind about certain topics, we have a lot of similar views also. I also had a great semester at school and I realized how much I can change things because I have the ideas to do that and having some support only pushes me further.
With this realization or Epiphany I've embraced my quirky, silly, nerdy self and decided to cut the boys in my life who weren't giving me what I needed. I had been talking to this one kid and I was nice to him and than he was all about me. I wasn't feeling it after a while because school was so busy and he was mad I wasn't talking to him all the time. Than during the Easter Holiday he got mad again that I wouldn't talk to him because I was spending time with my family. After a few weeks of not talking than him accusing me of things and pressuring me to set up a time to hang out, which I also didn't have I told him this isn't working out; for the second time. I didn't need to deal with this kid who was making me feel bad, texting me all the time when I really had no feelings for him and him being a punk. I cut some other boys out who were just bad energy and I didn't need that to move forward in my life in a positive way. So erase them from your phone and Facebook because you don't need them.
:: Sometimes I feel bad for brutally cutting people out of my life, because I'm such a nice person. In the end it's what is best for me and I realize that these boys aren't doing anything for me, or I'm just not attracted to them as I thought. So if you have any of these boys who are just stringing you along, making you feel bad or not giving you what you want from a relationship ex/ they don't want anything serious, drop them. You will find other men who want you for you!!::
So after I did that, I was free and loving life, not really knowing where the next road would take me except one night I went out and I met a man, Ike. I noticed him across the floor of the bar/club, but I didn't know he was checking me out also! I went outside with my girlfriends and he came out also with his buddy and we just started talking. We automatically had a few things in common and he's from California which I love because It's such a cool place. The fact that he's not from where I'm going to school now, south of the Mason Dixon line was a turn on also. We then ended up going to another club and dancing the rest of the night until I had to go. We of course exchanged numbers and we hung out the rest of the weekend, meeting up the next night to go dancing than an impromptu dinner and dessert Sunday. The funny thing that happened on Sunday was that he kissed me while we're walking around and he had happened to have had Peanuts earlier in the day; and I'm allergic. So thankfully I only had a mild reaction but he took me to the hospital with his buddy who drove us. Ike came with me and was very supportive and understanding and deeply sorry. While we were waiting for the Doctors to give me some medicine he asked me if "I wanted to go steady." Literally that's what he said and I melted and wanted to kiss him right their but I couldn't so I said yes and we smiled and hugged and than the Doctor came in and told me I was fine to leave. I was really happy, his friend waited for us the whole time and they drove me back to my apartment. Ike kissed me on the forehead and we hugged and set up a date for the next Friday. Well as it turns out the next day he sent me flowers, we texted the whole week and when he came on Friday bought me another arrangement of flowers. He also rented a car to come see me because he's getting his car shipped from California; when a guy does this he's pretty crazy about you!
The best thing about this is that I'm not worried about ANYTHING, I don't have doubt, I'm not worried it won't work out, he's not bothering me by texting and we talk every night and text all day, or when he's free. Sometimes the conversation was slow at first but now we're getting to know each other and we have a lot of things in common but on different levels, like our different levels of being nerds. But we also have some things we don't agree on; our political view points, his parents are divorced and mine are still happily married but that's not breaking points for me.
Our date on Friday was great and I made it how I've wanted to go on a date like, I told him to take me to a really nice restaurant and we had wine and were all classy because I deserve it! I wanted to make it special because I really like this man and when I do I want it to be like the movies. We then went for a walk around town and it was a really nice night, when It got a little too cool we went back to his car and back to my apartment. We watched a movie and we ended up having a great night together. It made me realize that having sex with that other guy didn't even really effect me and I did meet a guy who was so much better than he ever was. It made me happy to not have that pressure or stress because with Ike it felt more meaningful and right.
I had to spend the next two weeks back home and so Ike and I got to know each other and that's when we talked on the phone and Skype and I realized that he's genuine and really wants to go out with me. I'm so happy and it's been going on 3 long weeks of not seeing him but I'll see him this weekend which will be long because of the holiday, and I'm looking forward to seeing him again. I know this is good because it feels right and I'm not worried about where it will go. We're planning on going on some weekend trips together and I feel like that's a big thing, I don't want to rush it either and loose myself because of the relationship, but that's a whole other topic. I feel like he's really committed to this relationship and I'm just going along for the ride but I do really like him and since I've never been in a relationship it's all so new to me. When I can't talk to him because one of our phones die or he's busy with work ,I'm upset and I miss him. I feel like we're a good couple because we get each other and we're corny and cheesy together, yes he does have more experience than me and say's 'I'm a goody too shoes' because I am, it's not a bad thing. It's just how we grew up and it makes us who we are. The fact that he texts me every morning saying 'Good morning beautiful' and tell me I'm amazing all the time; I realize that this is what I've been waiting for. 24 Years later I have a boyfriend and I can't believe it, it feels simply amazing and I know we'll have fun together.
I feel incredibly thankful that all these things in my life have finally fallen into place and I am in a good place in my life to let another into it and not worry about anything. I'm happy in my skin and I needed to realize that first before I met Ike and I totally believe in fate/ destiny and I think this is one of those instances. I'll keep you posted on what happens but I want you ladies to know that if you feel like it's NEVER going to happen you have to find yourself first then he'll come and find YOU! I felt like it was NEVER going to happen forever but I found Ike and It's wonderful. Just have some faith and love yourself before anyone else.
Keep Calm and Soldier on, LOVE AND ROCKETS <3
Yours,
V. Supergirl
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