Dear my loyal readers,
As it is the last day of 2012 I look back on the past year of my life and think of all that I’ve accomplished and dealt with. I have literally been the happiest I’ve been in the last 3 years. That’s a long time but through all that drama and frustration I’ve come out a better woman.
At the beginning of the year I got a new roommate because the last one was horrid, a complete black ball of negative energy that brought me really down. The new roommate ended up being a shining light in my life that I needed and though our friendship was slow we soon became friends and went out on the weekends to clubs and dinner. When I came home for the summer I was so excited to be home and worked with my father which was nice. But the last six months have really be great to me and through my summertime revelation I began to really enjoy life again and to be happy.
3 years ago I went to school in London and it changed my life forever and every day I wish I could go back there and relive every moment; but I can’t all I can do is enjoy the memories and great friends I made along the way! But when I came home from that I was depressed and felt like I couldn’t connect with anyone, nobody went through what I just did and I was angry and upset. I was in a dark place for a long time, I took a year off after I got my Associates degree and just worked but I soon wanted to go back to school. So I applied and got into the school I’m at now and I thought it was going to lift my spirits finally and I’ll be happy. But it didn’t, the school the people and the place was so foreign to me, more foreign than living in freaking London! I fought the change, and having a horrible roommate was even worse. I look back and am so glad she moved out, so glad I got a great new roommate and I was finally feeling like I fit in with my new environment.
Now I have two roommates that are awesome and we might not be on the same page about everything but we get along great, we go out and have fun at the clubs and it's amazing. I was only at a low point in the beginning of this semester when my new roommates wanted to hang out with their new friends and I wanted to go out and do something else, I ended up staying with them the whole night and didn’t have any fun, nor the next night when we went out to get dinner. I realized that I shouldn’t put myself in situations like that, If I don’t like something I should just get out of the place. It was a horrible weekend and I was pissed but when school started again I felt better in no time. I always do small things for myself because I have to make myself happy before anyone else and I don’t care if I feel silly doing it or mean I need to do it.
As I’ve said before you need to do things for yourself and through all the drama it’ll all work out. The universe will provide and I can’t believe how great I’m feeling now. I hope all of you beautiful ladies can look back through this past year and find the good things you did, why they made you happy. But also look at the bad because they made you stronger and who you are today! For me I struggle with everything in life and I have to work twice as hard to go through life and some days I just wish life was easier, that I could get things like everyone else but I don’t and that makes me who I am. I am a fighter and I know I’ll succeed in the end, whether in big ways or small everyday accomplishments.
You need to have faith in yourself that you can do it, have loving supporting people around you and enjoy the moments because that will make you happy beyond anything. I know that each day you can struggle but in the wise words of Tupac Shakur... “ Through every dark night there’s a bright day after that, so no matter how hard it gets, stick your chest out, keep ya head up and handle it” He as helped me in more ways than one in realizing how beautiful I am and to “ Smile through all the bullshit” Because you get it everyday but just smile because you are a stronger person than that and you can succeed.
In the end I found it amazing how some close friends, some rest and solitude can truly change you. Self reflection and opening your eyes to a whole new world; like when I met Jeremy Renner are great things to nurture you soul. I have also felt like I don’t worry about things that much like boys or stupid things I shouldn’t have to worry about. So I’m thankful for all the things that have impacted my life this year, and all the people who’ve helped me along the way and to my own independent character for helping me step outside of my zone and enjoying life to the fullest.
LOVE,
V.Supergirl
" Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do!" -One Tree Hill
